Thank You Baby Conley

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Several times in the weeks before heading out to Vegas, I would ask Adam what I was going to do about meeting baby Conley. I was reminded of when I met baby Lyla (my brother’s daughter) while home for Jack’s funeral, and how it was too difficult to hold her or even be around her. Obviously, it was all too fresh at that time. I knew that I couldn’t be around Conley for a week and not hold him. I imagined that we would have to take it slow, and I prepared myself to feel embarrassed of the breakdown that I believed would inevitably occur.

Meeting ConleyFortunately, I surprised myself. The second I met Conley, I wanted to hold him. I was not overcome at all by emotion, I was just happy to meet my little nephew and hold him and kiss him and love him. The entire week with him, I never felt jealousy or sorrow (in his behalf), it was almost as if I was just a normal person. Whew. Talk about relief. If only baby Lyla could have been there! πŸ™‚

Conley and MeganI am optimistic that overcoming this situation may help me with the other babies that I am around. There are several new babies either at church or amongst my friends that I have avoided (hardcore) as of recent. It has been difficult to associate with the women who I was pregnant with because for months and months we all shared such a special thing in expecting our babies, and now their journey has reached its happy ending (or beginning) and mine ended in sorrow. I hope that little Conley opened the door to some sort of healing in that regard.

Resting with ConleyMothers of my angel Jack’s earthly peers…hold those babies a little closer, love them a little more, enjoy those late night feedings and those diaper explosions, relax amongst the messes and chaos. I probably don’t need to remind you that this is one mom who would trade almost anything to have what you have.

Is it the second coming…yet?? πŸ™‚

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7 responses »

  1. Love it! I love seeing you look so happy in these pictures! Thanks for a fantastic post πŸ™‚

  2. What a wonderful blessing, Elizabeth! I know it was a great relief to be able to enjoy your new nephew. You, Adam, and Megan are in our daily thoughts and prayers. As Shannon said, it’s really nice to see you looking so happy!

  3. You are glowing…I’m so glad you got a chance to hug and kiss on Sarah’s baby Conley.

  4. You are too cute! Seriously, I’m addicted to your blog…. All these years later and your still such a huge help, and example to me….except now you make me cry πŸ™‚ xoxo

  5. Conley loved having you. I could tell. You’re a great Aunt. And, Adam, you’re not so bad yourself – well as an Uncle that is.

  6. Way to go Elizabeth. that is the start. I remember having similar feelings after losing my Holly. You’re on your way.
    PS you look really good

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