For a couple of months now I have wanted to change the title of my blog. It is something that I try to do at the beginning of a new blog year. Previous titles have been: “Is this Heaven?” (from Field of Dreams), “There’s No Place Like Home” (from Wizard of Oz), and “Tomorrow” (from Annie).
My fifth year of blogging is about to begin. I don’t know why I have kept up blogging for the past four years. I don’t know why I think that I have anything profound to say or that people are actually interested in what is going on with my little family. I don’t even know who really reads this anymore, and I don’t need to know. I have considered giving up blogging who knows how many times, but for now I am going to continue because it’s a nice place to feel like I have a “voice” even if no one really cares what I have to say.
In my “history of blogging” I have come across many posts/comments wherein “Mommy” blogs are criticized because the authors write about how bright and sunny their lives are; how great their kids are, and how wonderful their husbands are. When “realistic” posts are published about how “difficult” life is or how “hard” it is to raise children, the authors are praised for their honesty and willingness to not “sugar coat” real life.
Well, guess what? My life is bright and sunny. My children are great, and my husband is wonderful. Sure, we have experienced heartache. There is no denying that. Almost daily it seems like Adam and I are up against a new battle…some challenge that threatens our happiness and could potentially tear us down. But even amidst trials and sorrow, we can laugh and find joy. You hear enough complaining and negativity in this world. When people come to this little corner of the internet, I want there to be no doubt about how I feel about my role as a wife and mother, and no question about how I feel about the decisions I have made in my life that have put me in the position I am in today. No matter what, I am totally happy.
And hey, for good measure, here is a proof that Miss Jane does actually cry. It is a very rare occurrence, almost non-existent. In fact, Adam actually asked me to take this picture because he had never seen actual tears in her little eyes and we thought it was adorable.
Who needs to “sugar coat”? When your life really is this sweet?